grandilloquism

Mom is going to drive me around the bend! I started showing signs of depression a few weeks ago. I couldn't sleep. I quit going out with or talking with friends. I'm crying all the time and I even quit messing around on my computer. I still read fanfics, I just do it from my phone. As a matter of fact, I think the awesome fics are what's been keeping me sane lately! They make me smile when not much does at the moment. I'm sorry for the lack of commenting. I LOVE what I've been reading, it's just hard typing a decent comment from the phone. I was already getting depressed and then when Megan died in October, it pushed me over the edge. About a week ago I decided to get help and I am seeing someone and have started medication. The thing about the medicine is it takes a few weeks to really start working. Mom has been in town staying with my Grandmother for the last couple weeks and will be in town until after Christmas. Evidently she has decided that she can't wait on the medicine to kick in and has made it her mission to just "cheer me up". She calls me constantly and texts me.I accidentally left my volume on my phone turned down the other day after work. When I didn't answer the phone, she drove an hour from my Grandmother's house to my apartment to make sure I was still alive. I'm not suicidal. Even my doctor knows that. She made me go get something to eat with her yesterday and go get a haircut. I had a decent time and I admit my hair does look a lot better. It's just she wants to talk about everything that is bothering me about my life and I don't think that's a good idea until my medicine starts working. Besides, it's not JUST certain things bothering me. You don't have to have a reason to be clinically depressed. Talking about it to her makes me feel worse and I feel so guilty for worrying her. Mom told me my brother has been hurt because I have only been to see my new niece once since she was born in October. That made me feel like shit. It's not that I don't want to see her. It's just the effort to do anything is overwhelming. I only go to work so I won't get fired. I just hope the medicine starts working soon before Mom drives me further round the bend!